Today was a lousy day.

I was trying to sleep just now hugging Mr. Teddy… but Mr. Teddy was too tiny and I could not help but thought of Him… I want to be able to snuggle with Him right now… but that is not possible… So I told myself that time flies and I would be in His embrace again in no time… Then I picture He fetching me from KLIA… Would I run into his open arms? Or would I approach Him slowly followed by a tight but gentle hug?

*sigh*

All those made me more sad only. I really miss Him. With Him, even a bad day is better than a good day I spend without Him.

I guess its times like this which make one realizes how much one wants to spend the rest of one’s live with someone else or not.

Well, it made me realized just how important somethings are and how insignificant somethings can be. Not like I didnt want this before, but being apart confirms that I really, really would like his companion for the rest of my life.

He is one of a kind.

In love,

A “cut” girl.

Yesterday was our “last” date before I fly off. He told me that we were going to somewhere but he was not going to tell me. It turned out to be Bukit tinggi. It was day. Sunny but windy. It was a nice place too. I especially like the Japanese garden. Very relaxing. We proceeded to take pictures while “paktok-ing”. Then we got home, each showered, and fell asleep while snuggling. It was a wonderful day. Pictures will be at the end of this entry.

Today was a happy day too. The Guy and I and Carol went off for lunch, a rather luxurious one, and we all had a good time. Walked around the mall for a bit before we went home and fell asleep while snuggling again. Mum’s called woke us up and we went off to Mid Valley after freshen up. While waited for mum and bro to reach, we did something mischievous but that might be another entry. Then we all went to have another luxurious meal. Went back to The Guy’s place and continued snuggling until he fell asleep then I went to watch tv. Here I am not, at home, typing away.

Tomorrow will be a sad day. I have been dreading this day for so long. It has eventually arrived. All I hope now is to not cry at the airport. I really wont want to cry there. And also hope that they wont charge me for the 5kgs excessed luggage weight.

*sigh*

I still dont want to go.

Anyways. Here are the pictures :

See you.

he fetched me from my place for dinner.

I got in the car and he asked me if I had any plan. I told him my plan, which was nothing special at all.

He then told me that we were going somewhere else and he wouldnt tell me where. A Surprise he said.

We chatted during the drive and somehow, I cried. The mixture of feelings was too overwhelming.

With the trace of tears on my cheeks drying up and a half blocked nose, I guessed the destination, correctly. Heh.

It was a place he promised to bring me to, quite sometime ago.

That day, I felt really happy but my face showed otherwise. I was, at the same time, really sad because we wont be able to eat together for months.

There was once when I told him that we only had two weeks left.

Then he said, “True. But we have many decades ahead”.

We will have many decades ahead.

We will.

When I was 17, I fell in love for the first time.
Everything went so smoothly and there was not a single argument during the relationship.
We saw each other 6 days a week.
We were free to do anything we wanted when we’re not physically together.
We were so carefree.
We wrote each other love letters despite meeting almost everyday.
I thought he was the one.
I cried for the first time the night before we parted.
You drifted apart.
We ended.
I became anti-social for a while.
I stayed single for quite sometime before letting go.
I started dating on and off again with similar routine.

Then came you.

I was looking for a no strings attached relationship.
I wanted to just loose myself and do anything I wanted in my life be it something really bad.
You came to me at the lowest point of my life.
You showed me I indeed could do whatever I wanted to do in my life.
You showed me the other side of the world.
I fell in love again.
Really hard this time.
I became dependent on you.
You became a part of me.
I wanted to participate in everything you do.
I wanted to be a part of your life.
I became possessive of you.
I care so much I think its going to back fire.
Soon we have to part.
I am still going to cry the night before I leave.

But this time, I know I can come back to you and we will still feel the same for each other, or even more although you’re not good at expressing your feelings to me. I think I will have to loosen my grip in order for it to work. I am sorry we have to argue every now and then. But I just need more assurance from you. I just need to feel important to you. I just need you to tell me. I dont know if you’re suffocating(I would if my other half was like me) but thank you for staying with me. You really mean a lot to me.

My baby, you are my world. Without you, I’ll only live aimlessly like how I was.

I love you.

Lil noob.

Waaaaaalaaa!

It was a beautiful day. I lazy to caption. Just look at the pics, kay?

Ta!

The Guy drove us to Melaka today. It was a one day trip and it was my first time there! It was a really pleasant trip. Not like Melaka was a blast, it was the company. =) Oh, we stopped at Port Dickson on the way back for sunset.

Will post some pictures up soon. I am too sleepy to wait for blogger to load.

But heres a teaser.

Yup, its blur but I really like it. Taken in Port Dickson at
some resort’s beach area.

Ta!

I dont know how to put them in words but I will try.

I have been so much happier ever since the day I met you. You showed me the other side of the world because we are so different in many things. But we got together somehow and we have came this far. It is a huge pain to have to leave you and everything else behind to do what I have to do in my life. It is beyond dreadful.

A simple dinner led us to now,
Its something I will never question how,
Although the road has not been smooth,
Your love is all I yearn,
And to be a better lover I will learn.

All the patience you have shown amazed even myself. I am grateful and I can only reciprocate with more love from me.

I could care less about anything else

There just isnt anything to worry about when you are with me. Thank you, my baby.

Lalalala~

Last night I had a row with my mum and I was very sad… So I sms-ed The Guy and ask him to make me happy…

Me : Baby… make me happy. Cannot stop crying
TG : Aww. I sayang you a lot ma. I dance for you k? (those who know him will know that he likes to dance funnily…)
Me : Cannot see also….

Mins later

TG :

=D/-<

=D#-<

=D}-<

(I melted.)

Me : You make me want to cry even more
TG : waaaa but dancing very geng ma
Me : I knoww… I am touched maaa…
TG : Oo hugs hugs

OMG Baby I sayang you a lot too! *mwahs*

I have been busy, peoplez. With both studies and personal life. Been fun though. Rushing assignment can sometimes be fun.

Somehow, I did not know who my groupmates were for my marketing plan assignment. I only got their names 6 days before the assignment were due. It was a Friday sumore. I tried contacting as many classmates I know as possible to get to them, but failed. So i search for them in Friendster. Wakakaka. It was my last resort, okay. And I found one of them!

Got his reply on Sunday. Being a super procastinator, I only started to do my part on Wednesday, the day before the assignment were due. It wasnt until I started to do it only I realised how long my part was. I tried to get help from other members only to find out that they havent done theirs too. How fun!

So rush until I had to meet up with one of the members, whom I have never talked to face-to-face, to have a mini discussion at The Hubz’ place at midnight -_- However, we managed to finish it.

.:Manja of the day:.

me : *does the daily dose of merajuk-ing*
hub : You take up both the merajuk and get angry license. Then what do I have??
me : You get to have the sayang me license maahhh…
hub : -_-”

Ta!

My connection went cuckoo for the past few days and if it wasnt for the Astro, I would have died of boredom. Now that the connection is back, I am too lazy to blog already. I am like…half a couch potato now.

I went to The Hubz hometown with him for the weekend. It was interesting. The drive there was…exciting for the first 1hr, and sleepifying for the next few. Not that The Hubz was boring, it was just me, not having enough sleep. I ended up sleeping most of the time during the weekend. Tired mah.

The mozzies there turned out to be hungrier than any other mozzies elsewhere. they sting whichever part of your skin that is exposed. So my forehead kena bitten. kembang like I just knocked my head hard on concrete. It was painful, not itchy. SO cham.

Then we visited a few places, took some pictures and had some fun. The dog at his place was so cute. It could open the door! And he was a beautiful dog. White colour fur with some trails of grey on his head and around his mouth. He had an innocent face too.

Mum is coming back to Malaysia from Taiwan tomorrow. Time flies. Gonna spend less time with The Hubz. *sobs*

Ta.