I am not quite sure

Today, I asked myself one question.

“What am I doing?”

My answer to myself was, I dont know. I dont know why am I here when I dont really want to be here. Must I do this to get what I want? I am not sure.

I confuse myself too often. One minute I’ld be so damn ambitious, planning my career path and the next, I’ld be damn ambitious in another way, to pursuit my happiness. I am not sure if i would be happy by achieving my career goals but there is one thing that I am pretty sure.

I am happy when I am with Him with or without my degree. With or without my career.

However, reality is always cruel.

I am bounded to complete my degree, I am bounded to have my own career. Hold on. Who says that to have a career one must holds a degree/diploma/equal qualification? Thats another question.

Basically, I just hate not being able to do what I want to do when I am actually bounded by my own fear of how my decisions could affect others.

Maybe I should stop living for others and start getting a life of my own. I guess that will not happen until I am able to actually do what I want to do.

Anyway, sometime ago I wanted to post this video in by blog but I kept forgetting about it. Its a speech made my Steve Jobs, the founder of Apple, at Stanford University. It is very, very inspiring. In fact, he is the greatest comeback in the business field. Simply click on the play button and listen to some of his stories.

Ta.