I have never felt quite like this

When I was 17, I fell in love for the first time.
Everything went so smoothly and there was not a single argument during the relationship.
We saw each other 6 days a week.
We were free to do anything we wanted when we’re not physically together.
We were so carefree.
We wrote each other love letters despite meeting almost everyday.
I thought he was the one.
I cried for the first time the night before we parted.
You drifted apart.
We ended.
I became anti-social for a while.
I stayed single for quite sometime before letting go.
I started dating on and off again with similar routine.

Then came you.

I was looking for a no strings attached relationship.
I wanted to just loose myself and do anything I wanted in my life be it something really bad.
You came to me at the lowest point of my life.
You showed me I indeed could do whatever I wanted to do in my life.
You showed me the other side of the world.
I fell in love again.
Really hard this time.
I became dependent on you.
You became a part of me.
I wanted to participate in everything you do.
I wanted to be a part of your life.
I became possessive of you.
I care so much I think its going to back fire.
Soon we have to part.
I am still going to cry the night before I leave.

But this time, I know I can come back to you and we will still feel the same for each other, or even more although you’re not good at expressing your feelings to me. I think I will have to loosen my grip in order for it to work. I am sorry we have to argue every now and then. But I just need more assurance from you. I just need to feel important to you. I just need you to tell me. I dont know if you’re suffocating(I would if my other half was like me) but thank you for staying with me. You really mean a lot to me.

My baby, you are my world. Without you, I’ll only live aimlessly like how I was.

I love you.

Lil noob.