Hello from Kuching.

Dial up is getting really slow its annoying. Thats why I havent been online these few days. However, I successfully stole someone’s wireless. Haehaehaehae.

Been feeling so lazy. I brought my camera back and I havent taken any nice pictures yet -_- Well, maybe I’ll go down and take some landscapes later. We shall see!

The purpose of this trip back home is to pack my winter clothes and I havent started also. So lazy. I am beginning worry that I might have to pay for some overweight luggages. The winter clothes I have here weighs about 13kg already. What about those I have in KL and my summer clothes and my shoes and my gadgets and wires and my skin care and my cosmetics and my accessories?!?!? *sigh* Its really troublesome being a girl. So many things to bring =\

I think I will have to forgo a lot of things and keep them in the new house in KL.

YES!

I am moving again(I think I have moved 5 times in the passed 4 years)! This time, to our own home. No more renting. But I wont be here to do all the hard work. Hehe.

Applied for my own saving account in HSBC today. Its “the world’s local bank” so I can withdraw money straight when I am in Aussie. No need to TT here and TT there. Too inconvenient for my mum. I really enjoy being a premier in HSBC and that will be another entry, probably tomorrow.

I still dont want to leave M’sia. Its such a lovely country, you know(despite dangerous)

Okay lah. Too much crapin this entry. Will blog about something more meaningful soon!

Ta!

p.s : going back to KL tomorrow!

Right now, I am in college studying(blogging at the mo). Hehe. To be honest, I only read a bit of my notes! But I have confidence. I can finished reading all the notes in time. This is my last paper! So happy.

Going back to Kuching this Sunday.

Okok. Back to studying. Update later!

When I was 17, I fell in love for the first time.
Everything went so smoothly and there was not a single argument during the relationship.
We saw each other 6 days a week.
We were free to do anything we wanted when we’re not physically together.
We were so carefree.
We wrote each other love letters despite meeting almost everyday.
I thought he was the one.
I cried for the first time the night before we parted.
You drifted apart.
We ended.
I became anti-social for a while.
I stayed single for quite sometime before letting go.
I started dating on and off again with similar routine.

Then came you.

I was looking for a no strings attached relationship.
I wanted to just loose myself and do anything I wanted in my life be it something really bad.
You came to me at the lowest point of my life.
You showed me I indeed could do whatever I wanted to do in my life.
You showed me the other side of the world.
I fell in love again.
Really hard this time.
I became dependent on you.
You became a part of me.
I wanted to participate in everything you do.
I wanted to be a part of your life.
I became possessive of you.
I care so much I think its going to back fire.
Soon we have to part.
I am still going to cry the night before I leave.

But this time, I know I can come back to you and we will still feel the same for each other, or even more although you’re not good at expressing your feelings to me. I think I will have to loosen my grip in order for it to work. I am sorry we have to argue every now and then. But I just need more assurance from you. I just need to feel important to you. I just need you to tell me. I dont know if you’re suffocating(I would if my other half was like me) but thank you for staying with me. You really mean a lot to me.

My baby, you are my world. Without you, I’ll only live aimlessly like how I was.

I love you.

Lil noob.

No. I am not advertising for some chips. This is the real person! Hehehe.

Well, sometime ago, I camwhored and I posted one of the pictures in ShutterAsia. Mr. Potatoe saw it and asked if he could shoot me(photoshoot lah, not bullets involved!) And I agreed to him.

The photoshoot took place last week at The Guy’s place. It was pretty scary to me on the first day because I was afraid that Mr. Potatoe will eat me. Heh. But it turned out fun. Second day was a pretty much a blur to me because I was seriously lack of sleep.

Luckily both The Guy and Mr. Potatoe gave me guidance or I might have screwed up the photoshoot Hehehe. Thanks, guys.

Heres one of the pictures.

Stolen from Mr. Potatoe’s Flickr. Click here to view more and his other masterpieces.

Ta.

Not blogging, I mean. These days I can forget about updating my blog altogether. I guess …

Oh shyt. Library just called me to tell me that I owe them 3 books which I totally forgotten. Migod! One book cost me rm3 a day! And its overdued for 4 days! OMG. I am so dead. Thats rm36. OMG. Okay. I am going to stop blogging and cry.

Ta.

No. Thats not an existing association.

It what I came up with minutes ago and its something I think I am going to do when I have the ability to. Its going to help kids from abusive family, be it mentally or physically. These kids are just too pitiful. They do not deserve such treatment. I think its going to be great.

Yes. I am going to do it as soon as I graduate and come back to Malaysia.

I mean it.

Anyone wants to help?

It was just emotional shyts type in my previous entry. I tend to urm… ignore my rational mind when I feel like I should let my emotional mind lose for a bit.

Okay, okay! I know. Those are excuses. I am sorry, kay

I love my Guy very much and I know he loves me too but but… thats why I get so upset okay! Because I care a lot. If I dont care I wont be so upset over things.

OKAY! I know! Excuses!!

I am sorry, my baby… for urm… letting everything on you without prior notice

Next time I’ll tell you 5 minutes in advance, kay? Hehehe. *hugs*

You know I sayang you a lot =)

p/s : Feel like throwing up. Stress. *sigh*

*Please ignore this entry as it holds no meaning at all. Tq*

Sometimes, I dont know what I am fighting for. I thought it was for you, for us. But I am always on my own.

Maybe I am the stupid one.

I went to campus yesterday to borrow some books from library to study with despite having a really bad experience with Sunlight Cab(I took a Public cab instead!). Then I found out I got 31.4 out of 50 for my Tourism Management assessment, which basically means I am pretty much screwed. Then found out that I got 30 out of 50 for my Human Resource Management assessment, which means I am pretty much screwed too. So I have to study really hard for my finals in hope to get a pass or credit or distinction if lucky.

4 essay questions 2 two hours for Tourism Management. Got about 8 topics to study on. How to make it? *sigh*

The HRM has got one extra case study some more. =(

Will find out my Organisational Behaviour and Business Communication assessment marks on Wednesday. Pretty anxious =\

Aiya. Stress.

Ta.