When depression sets in

I havent been feeling depress or emotional for a long time. I think it was since I met The Guy. Not many people know how screwed up I was. In fact, nobody knows how bad it was. Or it is. I mean, I am really happy right now but I cant but wonder if this is really me. The Guy makes me happy. Hence I am happy. But when he is not around, am I still gonna be happy? Or am I gonna be like how I used to be?

I have been feeling rather depress for the past few days. With assignments due and finals around the corner, having to prepare for my departure set the bomb off. I really dont want to leave. I guess nobody knows how it feels like no matter how many times I say “I dont want to go”.

I really dont want to go.