A reborn.

When things are so busy, a moment of peace seems so damn soothing. Nah. I havent got that moment of peace yet. I am so loaded with projects and presentations I dont even have time to breathe. Heh. Well, theres another thing which is keeping me so busy tho. I found a part time job! And I actually did not quit on the second day(altho I very much felt like quitting)!

I realised that….

I have changed. I no longer live in my dreams. When you live in your dreams, you tend to neglect whats in real life. And thats what I have been doing for almost a decade. I glad that I got out of it. I guess thats why I did not give up on my job. Heh. If I quit on every job then who is going to feed me in the future eh? Its only a part time job afterall. If I can take it, how am I going to face my future?

I no longer spend money like splashing away water. I now feel guilty spending my mum’s money on things I dont need. I havent used my credit cards for luxury goods for months! And I am proud of it.

I feel so good now. I have a job(which keeps me busy and away from spending money =P), a nice place to stay and everything I NEED(notice that its not everything I WANT!). Its like….a reborn.

Looking back at my spending habit, I feel that my mum loves me so much that she allowed me to do whatever I wanted. But I have got to stop. How am I going to afford spending 3k a month when I start to support myself in the future?

I no longer feel embarassed working a part time job. In fact I like my job. My colleagues are nice and friendly and my bosses taught me many things. And most importantly, I am not spending money in the shopping mall but earning it! Its an achievement to me so pardon me being over excited bout it.

I guess I am REALLY growing up. I thought I was grown up enough but how wrong was I. I was just a kid trying to runaway from all my responsibilities. I think He would be proud looking at me now. I no longer feel sad when I think of him. I might but cry its because I miss him.

Anyway, I am glad I turned over a new leaf. I now have a goal in my life. What is it you ask? That is to make my mum happy. After all that she has done for me, gave to me, sacrified for me, thats the least I could do.

And of course not make her angry so often! Heh. =P

I think I have finally opened. Untied the knot.