I am back in Kuching already! Feels great to be home. But I am sick. Flu with sore throat. The flu is really bad. *sobs*

Anyway, was tidying my room and saw all my stuffed toys. I went through the bunch one by one and I came across the Hello Kitties and Teddy Bears McD was selling. I didnt buy all of them, okay! My aunt from Taiwan bought me most of them. So nice of her.

Heres the pictures.

Teddies~!

and Kitties!

So if theres any colletcors out there who are interested…do not hesitate to contact me. Price is negotiable.

Urm…Just joking. Though they are taking a significant amount of space in my wardrobe, I dont think I’ll sell them. At least not now =P

SO I havent been updating my blog for a while. Been busy moving and packing and all. Will be going back to Sarawak tomorrow. Will be blogging again soon. Buhbyez!

So I had a hair cut. I have never had short hair in my life(besides being a tod, waiting for the hair to grow). I need words of encouragement. *cries*

So I was putting rollers up in my hair and when I was done, the rollers reminded me of the landlord lady in KungFu Hustle. So I took a picture imitating her. Quite funny. Buhz.

By the way, I was blog hopping and I saw this contest organized by Time magazine. Best picture of the year 2005. Do have a look there. They have pretty awesome pictures there. Sad but awesome. I voted for “His Sacrifice”. Had a hard time deciding between “Heading Home” and it.

Do excuse me now. I need to go collect rental now. Buhz.

No I havent seen one in real life and I wont want to. Just that I had nightmares about it a few days ago. Its quite creepy.

In my dream, I was sleeping on my bed and I somehow woke up and opened my eyes. Then I saw a dark figure at the end of my bed. It slowing turned around revealing a face of an old lazy with long black hair smiling at me. It slowly approached me and I got scared and ran out of my room shouting for Wendy, my housemate. I saw that her room’s door was wide opened and she was not in her room. I found her squating at one of the corners in the living room, frightened. I joined her and we prayed together.

At this point, the creepy nightmare turned into a comedy. As we were praying, the dark figure felt really uneasy and was floating towards the balcony, which was beside us, for an escape. I somehow felt angry and got up, ready to beat it up. Before I could lay my hands on it, it stopped me and said :

“Naaahhhh. Saya bagi awak pijak kaki saya”, and with that, it moved its foot forward. I slapped its arm once and it floated away. Then I woke up for real.

I tried to sleep again and I had the same dream. So I switched on the light and slept with it on and with my rosary beside me. No more nightmares after that. *shrugs*

It was later when I told a friend about the story then I realised the dark figure in my dream was a pontianak. An old one. I think it came to scare me because I was laughing at the preview of the movie “Pontianak 2″.

Anyway, glad that I no longer dream of it. Buhz.

So I promised Mike to post some pictures of my new laptop sometime ago. Was too busy being depress for the past few days. Will include the specs too. Now that I feel better, here goes!

My new toy is of Toshiba’s Satellite M50 series. Its specs are of below :

Operating System : Microsoft XP Pro.

HDD : 100GB HDD

RAM : 1024MB PC2700 DDR 333MHz SDRAM (512MBx2)

Processor : 1.73GHz Intel Centrino

LCD : 14″ Diagonal Widescreen XGA display with High Brightness (1280×768)

Graphic controller : ATI® MOBILITY™ RADEON® X600 SE with 256MB DDR discrete graphics memory.

Optical media : DVD SuperMulti (+R double layer) drive

Communication : Atheros wireless-LAN (802.11b/g) + Bluetooth

Speaker : harman/kardon stereo speakers

Weight : 2.35kg

Warranty : 1-year international.

My lovely girl

Side view

Its orange in colour….couldnt accept the colour at the begining but I love the specs. Now I kind of like the colour too =D

It has a quick start function to watching DVD/VCD and listening to CD. Which means you can do the mentioned without switching on the operating system

Which most laptops now have…

It has a 5-in-1 card reader

It has 4 USB ports all together. Along with my 4 ports hub, I have more than enough USB ports now.

Speakaaaa

Urm. I am not too familiar with the computer terms. So if I make any mistake calling them wrongly, do excuse me.

Been feeling down and troubled recently so I havent blogged for about a week. Well, what do I do when I feel down, troubled, depress and ugly? I take pictures of myself. Not sure how it works but it takes things off my mind. So I’ve decided to share some pictures here.

Vain pot on teh lose!! Well, now that I feel less depress, I think that I am really vain. Even took picture of myself on the phone. But its not that bad though. I was really on the phone, did not hold it just to take that picture. =P Anyway, now that I know my results, I feel much better. No longer depress but stil troubled. Buhz.

I always think of my father when I feel unhappy or low because I was happiest when he was still around. I would imagine all the things we could have done together if he didnt die. Such thoughts always bring tears to my eyes.

People dont understand why I cant let go of his death because they can never understand how it felt. I was reading Mitch Albom’s Tuesdays with Morrie about 2 months ago and I cried when he said he had never let go of his mum’s death for decades, even till the day he died. I guess that is how I will end up like.

My father, the greatest man in my life. My father, my hero. You will always be with me. I love you.

It has been long since I last wrote anything emotional. It is coming back. Just feeling moody and depress, like how I used to feel everyday.

Each day, I discover a fraction of how ugly a human being can be; through myself, through my friends, through strangers. The ugly things I did, the ugly things my friends did, the ugly things strangers did. They digust me.

Good things or bad things, it takes one to know one. So whatever good or bad comments we make on others, others might actually find them in us too. I dont care what others think, you might say, but I do care. I am not sure if I am putting myself into a difficult situation but I care because those people are closest to me and what they think of me is important to me.

I am always cautious with what comes out of my mouth and the consequences my actions may lead to. I always put myself into their shoes so I can know better what to do and what not to. However, I am often taken for granted. I am tagged as “easy/nice to bully” by people around me. Just joking, they explained without realizing its just an excuse they use to ease their guilt.

I tolerate a lot and that makes them think that I was borned with no temper. When I do lose my temper once in a while, I will be categorised as petty. Does that mean that they are fine me with losing my temper frequently? *shrugs*

I like to pamper my friends with gifts and buying them meals occasionally to show how much they mean to me. But I stopped doing it because they thought my family prints bank notes and started to take advantage of me(if I stopped being generous to you, you know what that means).

I dont ask for anything in return but a little sign of appreciation will definitely make my day. Afterall, I am only human; made of flesh and blood with a soul. Not sure if its a good one, but definitely not a bad one.

p/s : Do you say thank you to your family/friend when they do something minor like passing you the remote control?