The shadow of him

I have lost my inspiration =(
This is what I have written sometime ago and its also in my old blog.
I love it so much that I’ve decided to post it here.

The first thing you noticed about me was my pair of eyes.
The pair of eyes inherited from you.
You happily told your soulmate that.
Then you touched me. Felt my tender new born skin.
You brought me home proudly that evening.
Despite having bad luck for years after I was born,
Being not superstitious, you still showered me with as much love as you could give.
You were my shelter, you were my hero.
You protected me from the beatings I deserved and the danger I put myself in.
You showed me the world, you showed me everything.
You let me experienced as many thing as I could.
You taught me swimming, you taught me riding.
You taught me everything.
I was on top of the world when you were gone.
I was left unsheltered and unprotected.
I tried to be strong like how you taught me but I could not.
For I was left exposed to all the facets of life for the first time.
I kept looking back and wishing that you were here with me.
Each time I look back, lessen the pain I feel.
Each time I look back, makes me stronger.
Thats what I kept telling myself.
The fact is I have never grew stronger and the pain remains the same.
I have outgrown my age. I am tired.
There were countless night when I wished you would bring me with you.
And there were countless day when I wished you would be here with me.
Why haven’t I understand that you are always with me?
You are always in my heart. You were never gone.
Despite telling myself that over and over again, I still cry at night, wishing you to hug me to sleep, to sing my lullaby, again.
That eyes of yours, that voice of yours and that shadow of yours, are deeply engraved in my mind until I meet you, again.

VaLz